why do you do what you do to me, yeah

Basically, life doesn't stop on account of what YOU are feeling or thinking. It keeps trudging along. This past week, I think I learned that people aren't what you think they are. When they do something you think is "uncharacteristic" of them, maybe it's not. Maybe that's them, and you didn't know them as well as you may have thought. People are so oblivious to what goes on around them, including myself. I wonder what all I miss out on and don't pick up on as I see there is a hell of a lot of that going on around me.
Don't dwell on things. I think about things an awful lot, things that probably didn't deserve much attention in the first place. The "why's" and the "what if's"... does that stuff really matter? probably not as much as we make it out to.
I'm finding a lot of comfort in music right now, because it is allowing me to feel what I am feeling without needing to discuss it with anyone. pretty powerful stuff.
well, '30 seconds to mars' concert on the 30th. stoked.
oh yeah... & miracles DO happen.

so many things i'd say if only i were able...

Wow... it's been over a year since I posted on this thing & reading all these posts are making me feel really weird and miss how it used to be a little bit. I have been living in an apartment with Katie for about almost 5 months now, and our lease is up in October. It has been fun and everything, but I am ready to get to a University and get OUT OF TYLER. I missed home when I was at Grayson, but now looking back... I am SUPPOSED to be living life away from the people I grew up with and have known all my life. I am SUPPOSED to miss my sister's sporting events... and the thing to do would be "visit"... not come back home. I like having my own place, but I am ready for a change. My plan is to finish up this semester & get my Associates from TJC, apply for Texas State after the semester is over, and move there in the fall when I have a good bit of money saved up and I will be 21! whoop whoop! :D

This past summer was a great one. Parties at our apartment, meeting new people, and people coming and going from my life. I have made a few new good friends that I didn't have before and I have also learned that I am not incapable of feeling some things as I thought I might be. It's definitely been a ride. I will be moving in with my Mimi in Waterton mid-October and hopefully i will have a steady job by then. I am just going to take it easy, focus on making good grades, & save my money.

As most things in life, everything hasn't gone "quite" as planned in the past year. I have done things I swore I'd never do, been hurt, laughed a whole lot, been scared to death, thanked God for his miraculous deeds, and been surprised by more things than not. We got a kitten! Her name is Lyric and I will be keeping her when the lease is up. OH! Also, relationships that I never even imagined would come back into my life... have somehow reappeared better than ever and I am more than grateful for that.

Basically, I have grown up and learned a hell of a lot since I last posted on here. But I am ready to take what I have learned and apply it elsewhere, keep all the new... and old friendships alive and better than ever, and go meet new people, do new things, learn new things, and live life like it was intended to be lived.

::megan rene'