just gotta hope its what i want in the end.

so, dane cook was amazing. i just watched juno and it was also amazing. i rented waiting because i was told its amazing. and i had a fantastical weekend, it was amazing. :) friday:: i babysat, drove to commerce to neeleys apartment, we ate at soulmans and then headed to dane cook!! being that close to him was freaking awesome and i loved it! they had pretty good opening acts as well. (: then we came back, went to walmart, and back to her apartment for the night. her doggy was pretty cool and little. also im going to say ryan and hunter are the luckiest two people in the world. enough said.


saturday i got to see the infamous HONEY GROVE and katie showed me around to all the places that one tree hill filmed at when they were there. it was awesome. =D then i made the drive home which was pleasant, maybe because i had an awesome night the night before but i did like the drive... it was loverly. then i got home.. swam, ran, showered, went to nannys and walmart to get things to make dads scrapbook i made him for fathers day. productive day i will say


then today i woke up super late because i went to sleep at like 6am. had a terrible migraine. got rid of it then hung out with nanny and the family. read mom and dads old love letters. lol then i rented waiting and madea goes to jail. had an amazing dinner, hung out with grayson and swam a bit, watched juno and currently watching WAITING.


im sure more things have happened since i last posted but i dont feel like racking my brain as to what those things might have been.


::megan rene'

youre a part time lover and a full time friend.

okay... the week has gone by & i never finished this post so here goes nothin.

i made a HUGE decision today and i am hoping its for the best but i cant be for sure yet i guess... i guess you may be wondering what it was. i have decided not to attend lon morris this fall and play softball on a softball scholarship. i love the game with all my heart, but i have quite a few things that i need to work on for me and for the rest of my life to pan out nicely... such as school, a real job, and losing weight and such. i want to be happy with my weight, so i really need to focus on that without worrying if i can fit into a softball uniform and not look like a complete lard ass and also my studying habits SUCK. so hopefully in this next year i can work on both of those with some success. :) i am actually really looking forward to it. the success part. i really REALLY wanted to go to school with one of my best friends and a girl i love with all my heart and consider her more of a sister than a friend any day. i do feel like i am letting her down as well as the other people who saw how grayson played out for me and wanted better for me and KNEW i was better than that. but i know honestly that i could have helped out on the team at grayson and believe i would have brought something to the team that they missed out on by not giving me that opportunity in ths spring. i will have to say that i am VERY upset that i will never be in the dugout like that, in big competition and screaming my lungs out with girls that i love and consider family... but i didnt have that at grayson so i can say i have been used to not having that for over a year now. i did consider them my family, yes... but the screaming and intensity of it how it used to be definitely wasnt there for me with all that was going on. so of course i cant be positive about all this right now... but i have made the decision and now i gotta stick to it. not too excited to explain it to everyone either but oh well... gotta make something of myself now. (:

other than that, the past week was pretty good, was with my kids like always (: -- been swimmin like crazy.. yesterday was the first day in a week and a half that i didnt go swimming... haha i love it. brooke is in colorado now for a week with the church, so i will definitely be missing her. anyways.. ill put pics and stuff up later because im babysitting...

::megan rene'

--addtions to my post (:

And the same when autumn comes...

Cold Air I breathe in my lungs
Something's new but nothing's changed
Familiar feelings just the same
Soon too the warm air comes by
Lie back and stare at blue skies
Thinking back away and from
When I'll be here and you'll be gone
Further from meI think now of summers high
And reminisce on past times gone by
Only remembered now in
Earth, trees, the stars that have been there
And there forever heldKept safe but memories never told
But felt if you went by
In never changing sky
And we'll be goneFurther
God's love will save our light and we'll come shining bright
God's love will save our sun and thy will be done
God's light will save us...

so... 4 days until DANE COOK! :)
1 month and 2 days until MY BIRTHDAY! :)

umping went a lot smoother this past week. thank goodness. i got to hang out with my favorite kids all week, and saturday was brandon & jordan's birthday... two VERY important people to me!! i got bran the movie taken and also napolean dynamite (being as that one was on the four dollar rack and i thought he liked it haha) and a case of cream soda && i got jordan a tshirt from pineapple willys, a shot glass, a lighter, an ELVIS sign, and the movie unfaithful (which is very sexual ha but also very awesome [:). i will be so happy to be getting mail from her soon!! PEN PALS! bahaha :) also brittany (the former roomie) asked for my address today and im REALLY wondering why she was askin for it! im kinda anxious. lol

today i watched some detective shows, yes brit i watched em. haha then i watched some "im a celebrity, get me out of here" because that show cracks me up so much. janice couldnt be more of a bitch and a liar. lol she obviously ate the granola bar and we all watched her do it and she goes on to deny it and play the "pity me" roll. haha i was crying from laughing so hard. =P then i helped dad assemble our new pool!! its above ground, one of those four ft ones... but we have never had one and i need some sun and some exercise to go along with it so i am happyyyy!! :) they are even going to build a deck! which i am super excited about! then i went and picked up alyssa and grayson and me, alyssa, and brooke practiced some hitting and throw downs then hung out for a bit, then they ended up staying the night over here. :) i absolutely love them! brandon was at a friend's so he didnt come with them though. grayson is getting so big.. its kinda sad but he is still the most awesome kid anyone could ever imagine! (: (: (:

well it is 5:41 am and i am still awake, which may be a problem come tomorrow... but maybe not. i slept late this morning so maybe i am making up for it?? haha maybe not. jordan's little picture quotes had me lookin for some myself so i am gonna put a few on here today because i found some really good ones.. plus a couple bob marley ones for you jordy since i know you love him and you havent put them up yet so i didnt know if you had them!! :) you probably do, but in the off chance that you do not... you will now!

i went through my old xanga with my little sister a while ago.. well hours ago... and all my quotes and stuff on there she loved. i think since i had it around the same age that she is now, she can relate to a lot of it so that made me happy :) and sad too about some aspects of that. lol

anyways i am really wishing my cd burner would work. that would make me so happy. and i wish the movie "PUSH" would come out so i can buy it. along with "HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU" which i will get within the next couple weeks... when i get the money to spend on movies. :)

okie dokie, well i'm out. (:

::megan rene'
































JORDAN'S BOB MARLEY ONES :)

let's have some fun, this beat is sick...

I WANNA TAKE A RIDE ON YOUR DISCO STICK (:
so, a lot has happened since my last post. i found out that denyse (the mother of the kids i babysit) has pulled grayson from daycare, so i get to keep him all summer and not just a few days a week! im super excited! my first day of babysitting was friday and it was awesome as expected. (: we all got up and moving around 10:30 ish and then layed around a while... next thing we did was go get the little kitten that brandon's friend gave to him! it is so cute and tiny! they named it smokey i think... the name changes every two seconds, GO FIGURE! :P then i took some sweet pics of them jumping on their new trampoline! then i had to ump and it was absolutely HORRIBLE. it has never been that bad. coaches and parents were awful and all i could do was laugh at their stupidity and rudeness. [even thought they were wrong still. ha!] people are dumb. haha

got back from florida thursday afternoon and i brought back a lot of things to remember it by! shells, pics, shirts, shot glasses, keychains... and things like that. got some people some things. haha that they will LOVE and do LOVE. (: hmm about florida. it was so pretty and i was glad to get to go the beach again this summer but i was also verrry happy to be back home too! we went to panama city and i loved it! we drank, layed out, swam, shopped, and ate.. that was about the jist of it. the people we went with were a ton of fun though. just wasnt all how i had hoped in some ways... but in others it was good.

well like i said i got home thursday, babysat friday, and yesterday KATIE, RYAN, AND NEELEY (aka::nilly) came to stay the night in whitehouse with me! we didnt really do much because so many people are out of town and all... but we had a good time. we went to see the hangover yesterday and it was HILARIOUS all the way through... it was so great. haha and then we came back and dad cooked out and a bunch of people came over. hmm the hearon kiddos, kevin & denyse, nana and poppa, jack and jackson, beej and erica, allison... and then us four. it was some fun. and mom bought stuff for us to drink which is COMPLETELY out of character for her. lol but good for us. we just hung out with everyone and messed around.... they got to see a little bit of the whitehouse life (: then we watched wanted and went to sleep. this morning we got up to dad bringin breakfast home from the donut palace and we sat and watched boston legal with him for a little bit. then, ironically, the episode of one tree hill that katie, ryan, and neeley are in was on tv as a re-run and the channel happened to be on SOAPnet so that was freakin weird. haha so we watched that and my mom freaked out and what not. then we went to dairy queen and they headed back home to get things done there! it was a good visit but entirely too short! they will hopefully head back down here again ASAP for a longer weekend and one where we can get on the lake :) :)

on the plus side, dane cook is in 12 days!!! got neeley's money to her and now i can REALLY be excited about going to see dane cook SECOND row on the 19th!!! ahhh its going to be great! and that means it wont be long until i see all them again either! :) plus ryan and hunter will be there too!! its going to be a lot of fun! now we just got figure out the riding arrangements... :P

well this is the first week im gonna start working out again and stuff... starts tonight so... wish me luck. ya know i hate it. well my smokey is in california and i miss her like crazy plus i was hoping the girls would get to meet her, and taylor smith (who was at a family thing in trinity), and jordan (in orlando), and doodle (in florida)... so that didnt all quite work out. but they met beeeej and allison and my kiddos and pootchop! so its all good :)

im currently looking at the songs jordan puts at the bottom of her blog anf downloading them. dont make fun :)

::megan rene'

pics from the past week and a half or so (: